It’s In Me Too

Lyrics

I've been jealous of younger faces And embarrassed that I was I've been sharp with happy people Just because they still had buzz I've made little jokes about myself So nobody else could get there first And called that being honest When really I was hurt

I don't love these parts But there they are And lying doesn't wash them off

I've got bitter in me I've got fear in me I've got pride that hates growing old I've got anger, vanity Old regret and self-pity I don't say that proud I just say it straight It's in me too

I have judged the young for ease As if I wouldn't wear it too I have turned my losses holy Just to make them feel more true I have used my pain like proof That I see deeper than the rest Maybe sometimes that was wisdom Other times just defense

So here's the hard part No nice light No better story than the one that fits

I've got bitter in me I've got fear in me I've got pride that hates growing old I've got anger, vanity Old regret and self-pity I don't say that proud I just say it straight It's in me too

And maybe saying all of this Out loud for once Keeps it from running everything The way it does some days (yeah) Some days

I've got bitter in me I've got fear in me I've got things I wish had never grown this way Still they're mine to face Mine to keep in place Mine to keep from running every room I'm in I don't need to hide I can say it plain It's in me too